Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I feel good.......

and I knew that I would...da da da da da!

Don't ask, I have no idea...but for some reason I feel we have some hope.

We have decided to quit worrying about insurance least for the time being.No one can make our situtation better but us, so that's exactly what we are going to do!

Sean is going to persue a career...and with any luck, it'll work out. He's nervous, so am I...but in all reality disability payments wouldn't pay us a lot of money....and we both want more out of life. He's actually been able to quit taking his meds, they weren't helping with the pain and were just screwing more things up. He does feel a difference, but not yet to the point he can't handle it.

We have plans to fix up our house..then sell once Reece is done high school. We want things , trips, etc...and that isn't going to happen sitting on a disability pension.

If we find he can't work, then yes, we'll go after Sunlife with lawyers and lawsuits...but if it does work out then yay for us!!!!

I did our tax return and that will definitely help pay a few bills...which is awesome!!

Less then 2 months until I'm a, that still sounds wierd. Once again my daughter isn't speaking to us...but with any luck I'll still have a part in the childs life to some extent. Unfortunetly I have a feeling the drama won't stop once the baby starts to grow up. Although I won't allow it to happen with us, I do feel the 'other side' will make it a huge competition which is sad. Either way...I'm excited.

SO, there ya have it....2011 is going to be a GREAT YEAR!!!!!

Keep Smilin'

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

So there you have it....

Once again the insurance company has said no to keeping the claim active. Their reason...our doctor stated that Sean is better off active and could likely do something with re-training. Unfortunately, it's not up to the insurnace company to re-train him. Thanks doc, for being on our side....Sean had no intention of 'sitting on his ass' for the rest of his life, but he would have liked some time to figure out what it was he could do.
We went today to see the phsiatrist (a pain management specialist) and was told his pain is caused by the muscles that need to support his spine and the best way to fix it is swimming 3 times a week. They could also do nerve injections to numb it while he does these exercises if he'd like. OK, so now we have to join a program somewhere to be able to fix Sean's back in order for him to work, but if he doesn't work now, we can't afford to join anywhere. Nice eh!
We are tired of fighting for something we deserve when it seems like there isn't a hope in hell of it ever happening. It's so frustrating when I see people that have NO issues at all, and are screwing the system and getting away with it. Makes no sense.
So, enough whining and hoping that things will turn out the way they should. Time to take care of ourselves again. Sean has a high pain he's going to find work to support us, and hopefully so we don't lose our house. I guess if he can't do it, he can't and we'll go from there. The next step if working doesn't work, will be to get a lawyer and start proceedings against the insurance company.
Now all we need is some 'find a good paying job soon' we are out of time and the mortgage company isn't very compassionate!
Keep Smilin'

Sunday, March 20, 2011

When does it get easier?

We dropped Maya off at her new home a couple of hours ago. Reece and I cried all the way home. I doubt we'll ever get another animal, it's just too tough on our family.
So, I just decided to look at my Facebook, when all of a sudden I get a notification saying my account has been disabled. WTF...and for what reason is what I'd like to know.
This day just keeps getting better :(

Saturday, March 19, 2011

I officially suck as a parent

This is our dog Maya...and tomorrow, we'll be giving her to a very good friend of ours.
We've been debating for over a year, on whether we should find a home for her that would give her lots of room to run be 'free'. At our house she needs to be tied up and can't run and have fun.
It's been a tough decision, one that we are all shedding tears about today. Our friend and her son came to see her and fell in love with her. I asked for another day with her, so we could all come to terms with our decision. We know this is better for her, as they have 100 acres of farm land, and she'll get all the room to run and play that she wants.
Reece is having a really hard time with it, and seeing her heart broken is breaking my continually.
We've had Maya since February 9th, she is part of our family. We just can't see having to leave her attached to a chain for the rest of her just seems so unfair :(

The one good thing is that the people that are taking her only live about 20 minutes from us. We can go see her whenever we want. I'll be able to keep tabs on her, and make sure she's ok. It doesn't make it slightly easier then just giving her to strangers. I know these people will take care of her and give her as much love as we have.
It's a sad day in our house :( so I don't think today I'm going to say Keep Smiln' because if I can't, I can't expect anyone else to :(

Friday, March 18, 2011

Yah, it's Friday!!

Not that that means a whole lot, but it's my day off...for now anyway.
We did receive a letter from the insurance company this week, that our case has gone to the appeals division. Hopefully someone there has a brain in their head...but we'll know soon enough!
Sean is actually thinking about getting his licence to drive transport trucks. Driving isn't as big of an issue as long as what he's driving is comfortable, and like most men, he'll do whatever it takes to look after his family. We aren't sure if it's something he'll even be able to do, but it's something he's thinking about.
I'm registering for the Walk To End All Women's Cancers' this weekend too! I've started 'training' ...which will be good for me. One of my very bestest friends has committed to walking with me! How cool is that. Sean joked saying we'd walk the 32 km's and not even notice because we'd be talking so much hahahahahaha!!
Anyone wanna walk with us??? You are all more then welcome!
Nothing else really going week is a busy week. I have my echo cardiogram scheduled for Monday, Sean has an appointment Wednesday in Barrie with the Phsiatrist (not sure if that's how it's spelled) and then I have a doc appointment Thursday , and if the echo results are good, I'll have a treatment that day too! ONLY 3 MORE TO GO!!
We're off, have a great day!
Keep Smilin'

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

So, we are giving it one more try....

well, maybe not one more, but one more right now...We went to see Sean's doctor last week, and explained our situtation to him..although we shouldn't have had to. He agreed to send a detailed letter to the insurance company explaining exactly how Sean is , and how restricted he is with his pain. Cross your fingers that this finally works. We have started the paperwork to apply for a government disability. Believe me, I don' t want to have to sell my house! I will keep you posted :)
There is something I've been wanting to do , as soon as I discovered I had breast cancer. I want to walk in the 'Weekend To End All Women's Cancer'
You can check it out here-->
My friend Nicole has already agreed to join my 'team' and walk with me. I'd love to be able to do the two day walk, but 60 km's (37 miles) is I think too ambitious in my first year. I'm still suffering from fatigue so doing the one day walk(32km's-19 miles) is going to be tough enough.
I think I mentioned before that Nicole was going to be moving away, and I've been a bit sad ever since. She's just one of those friends that regardless of how often or how scarce the visits are, we talk and talk and talk. I joked to Sean and said that we' d walk the 32km's without even noticing because we'd be talking so much!! SO...we are going for it. I need to think up a really cool name for our team. All sugestions are welcome!!
so, with that said, I can see LOTS of photo opportunities coming up, as well as LOTS and LOTS of training. Wish me luck..
I have yet another treatment this week...this will be #15 of 18..almost done.
I also have an appointment in April for my first mammogram since surgery and radiation. This is the big one...the one that will confirm that the cancer is gone. I"m pretty confident that it is, but I'll be glad to finally have the results!
Hope all is well in your parts of the world...
Keep Smilin'