Sunday, January 29, 2012

Weekends are simply the best!!

For most it's because we don't have to work, and yes I guess that's part of it, but for me it's because Sean is home :) He got home yesterday morning around 10:30am and we are now parking his tractor at our friends place just a few minutes from where we live. We went over yesterday, went in and started chatting then we stayed until about 1:30 in the morning. We were looking after our grandson Noah , so I had Krystal bring him to Dayle and Kevin's. We had lunch and dinner, and boy did we talk...about just about everything. It was really a lot of fun. We had a bit of a blizzard all evening, but I drove home in it and was pretty proud of myself for being able to do that actually.
Noah was really good. He's now on a bottle, which is so much easier for the rest of us to look after him. He's so darn cute! We put him to bed at Dayle and Kevin's, woke him up , had to play a bit wit him. Grandpa talked like Donald Duck to him, and the smile on his face was huge! Put him back to bed I think around 2am. He woke up at 3:30, I put him in bed with us (I was exhausted!) and he slept until 8:30 this morning!
Sean is now trying to fix our has air suspension and the air bag is leaking so it won't hold the air. It's an awful bouncy ride without suspension, so he's working on putting regular springs into it. We weren't going to both fixing it, but we can't leave it for a couple of months like this, and that's when I'll likely be able to drive our little pick up again, once the snow is gone. The plan is to buy a new or new to us pick up truck in the spring if we can.
I also plan on being caught up with our bills by the end of February so we will be right back on track, to where we were when Sean got hurt over 3 years ago!
Well I finally figured out how the Cuttlebug works. I've been frustrated with it for over a week. The stupid thing is, I've had it since last May but didn't do anything with it except remove it from the box and put it into storage. Finally pulled it out, and with some perseverance, I figured out how to use it. I am looking forward to using it more often. I wish I could have it out all the time, but just isn't room to do that. I'm still in just a wee corner of our unfinished basement.
I've started to scrap more, I'd like to start making more cards too, maybe try and sell some , who knows.
I'm also going to work seriously on my mortgage business. I did another one for a friend that closed last Tuesday! I'm so pumped when I get someone interested, it's just too bad they are few and far between at this point, but everything takes time.
Anyway, gotta run, it's 6:30pm and I think my dinner (barbecued ribs) should soon be done
have a great evening
Keep Smilin'

Thursday, January 19, 2012

*Warning* Vent enclosed

So, I'm sure most of you remember the 60km walk I did last September to benefit the Princess Margaret Hospital. I walked with a friend Nicole and together we raised about $4500. They had sign ups for 2012 at that walk with a registration fee of only $10. We paid a $50 registration fee last year so we both signed up. Nicole said she started this with me and would always continue to walk with me, regardless of who signed up.
Then I'm pretty sure I mentioned I had a couple of friends, both in their 40's pass away from Cancer, one in November and one in December. Well the one in November was a former family member (My first husband was her cousin) She'd battled cancer for 12 years and passed away at 41 years old. She didn't have a 'women's cancer, she had a tumor in her stomach originally, that spread to her liver and lungs in the end. Anyway, while at her funeral, they played the Martina McBride song "I'm gonna love you through it" which is a song written by a guy for his mother in law who battled breast cancer. The entire song is amazing and actually brought tears to both mine and Sean's eyes. It's sooooo close to me except for the age of the woman, and the outcome of her surgery,but everything is is bang on. Anyway, I found it sort of inappropriate at Jen's funeral because Jen didn't have breast cancer. Someone even whispered behind me while the song played about how Jen didn't have breast cancer, why would they play that song.
Here's a link to the song in case you haven't heard it
Anyway, Jen's sister, sister in law and family friend have all signed up to do the walk this year. That's fine, I'm glad, it's more money for an amazing hospital that helped save my life as well as countless others. I sort of wondered why when the sister joined , she didn't join my 'team' but thought, no big deal. I read the sister's welcome page on the end cancer site, and she has said she's walking in memory of her sister. I found this a little odd, since Jen didn't have a women's cancer but whatever...carry on.
When Nicole and I signed up for this coming year, we'd said we'd love to raise $5000 each, as this year is the 10th year for the walk, and we thought it would be cool to raise $10 000 as a team.
Today I received a text message from Nicole stating that last year she walked with me FOR me and this year she'd like to walk with the sister in memory of Jen. I was sort of stunned, I mean seriously? I said "um, ok" then she asked me if I was going to as well. I said "what? Walk in memory of Jen" she said "yes" I didn't respond right away, I was still a little stunned. I guess she forgot what she'd said about always walking with me. So, I responded saying that I would NOT be walking in memory of Jen, that this was still a very big part of my life and it's still not over and never will be. I said that I didn't think it made sense to walk in memory of someone who didn't have any of the cancers that this walk benefits and that there were plenty of other walks and runs that benefit general cancers.
Well, I guess I've ticked her off, as her only response was " honestly I can't even comment and that's probably best"
So, I need your opinions...was I wrong in what I said? I talked with another friend today and she totally agrees with me. I said I wasn't sure why this is bugging me so much, and she said likely because I've been through it, I'm still going through it.
Maybe it's silly, but to have Nicole bail on me, to be able to walk for someone that didn't have one of the cancers this walk is for, really upset me.
I called Sean and spoke to him, he offered to walk with me this year. I don't think he'd be able to with his back, but he said he'd start walking on the treadmill. I really love that man!!!
Anyway, vent over, maybe I'm over reacting, I'll get over it.
Thanks for reading
Keep Smilin'

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

The Difference A Year Can Make

I found the top picture on my computer, and thought Wow, what a change.It was taken January 2011 so I had Sean take a picture of me this week, one year later.
It's almost shocking!!!

I need my hair trimmed badly , but I wanted to share this. I'm going to scrapbook both these pictures together!
Have a great night

Friday, January 13, 2012

The Results Are In.........

Ok, so before I tell you what they are, I'll tell you how it went. I called the surgeon's office last Monday. I left word that I was wondering if there were any results and the assistant said yes, she did have them, and that the doc would call me either today or tomorrow. I left a number where I could be reached, then I waited again. Well Monday came and went, so did Tuesday. So, Wednesday I waited until lunch time but just couldn't wait any longer. I called the office and got the assistant again. She said to wait a moment, that I was on her To Do list , and that she was to call me. She went and got my file....... a few seconds seemed to take forever!

Mary Rose came back and said " Everything is NORMAL" I swear it instantly felt like a HUGE weight was just lifted off my shoulders. I felt so awesome, I was even borderline hyper all afternoon!!

Thanks for all your good wishes and positive thoughts...they definitely helped!!
Next mammogram--April 2012

Saturday, January 7, 2012

How Far Would You Go?

So, Thursday evening, Reece was at her friends ( I dropped her off on my way to work Thursday morning) I worked until almost closing because I had no one to come home to. Sean was on his way back to Mississauga from Sudbury, but we had no idea what he'd be doing after that. The company has slowed down, and will for approx 3 weeks, typical January after Christmas. I got home, ate a chicken breast I had in the fridge. Sean said he'd call when he got to the yard, which he did, at about 7:45pm. He says they don't have a load for him that night...did I want to come spend the night with him. OH MY, I was so excited, I still get butterflies in my tummy when I know I'm going to see him. Funny thing is, we've been together for almost 18 years!
I grabbed a change of clothes and jumped in my truck and headed to Mississauga. From our place it's just over an hour.
We went to get something to eat, 1/2 price wing night at Kelsey's ...had a couple beers, since he wasn't driving it wasn't an issue. It was a totally awesome evening. It almost felt like we were teenagers on a date. Remember way back when you first started going out with your significant other, or a boyfriend you once had. You'd do almost anything to see them , well that's how I still feel about Sean. Sounds corny maybe, but I wish everyone could feel this way!!!
How far would you go to see your man??? I've done this a few times, even if just a few minutes. I think some people think I'm nuts, but I don't think so!
So, since I don't work Fridays, I wasn't in a rush to leave. I spent the entire day in Mississauga with Sean. He had to take his truck over to a place to get the APU fixed. That's the unit that heats his bunk. I met him there, and we just wondered around Costco to kill time. We had to find a Staples too, so I could fax papers for a mortgage I'm doing to the office which took some time too. If I hadn't of been there he would have had to sit in the lounge waiting on his truck. It wasn't ready until 4:30 , he dropped it off at 11:30! The dispatcher in Mississauga, both the day shift and afternoon shift are friends of ours, so we chatted with them for a bit. Went on a coffee run for the dispatchers and the security guard. It was just a fun day. We found out once his truck was done that they weren't sending him back out until Monday, so we could go home. He took the truck home, so I followed him out of the city, stopped in Shelburne to pick Reece up and then came home. It was just one of those days that everything is unplanned, a play by ear kind of day.
Today has been a fairly lazy day too. We did a bit of grocery shopping, had to meet up with the broker in my office to give her a couple documents then home. We have a 10lb chicken on our barbecue and I'm watching Reece play WII. I'm trying not to think about the MRI results. I have a feeling that everything is fine, but still in the back of my mind I have to be realistic and realize that there could be a problem. Hopefully this week I'll know!
We have no plans for tomorrow, just one of those days!!
Have a great weekend!!
Keep Smilin'

Friday, January 6, 2012


OK Ladies ( and gents if there are any)
From January 20 - 22 SCRAP~TURES is holding an online crop to get the year
started off on the right foot.
You will have until Wednesday January 25th to get your layouts uploaded to our gallery.
It's going to be lots of fun, lots of challenges, a few games thrown in for good measure.
Even if you aren't a member of our site, sign up know, and join in the fun!!!
See You there

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Hurry Up & Wait...again

Today was MRI day. One would think that with all the technology, those darn things would be comfortable to lay in for half an hour. For anyone that has had one, breast MRI's are different. You don't get to lay on your back and just relax. You have to lay on your stomach for half an hour, your hands above your head but not touching each other. Your boobs are hanging in two holes and your breast bone is laying on a hard metal piece of the machine. Sure, they have a piece of foam on there to cushion it somewhat, but it's like laying on a blanket on a cement floor, doesn't really do much..know what I mean LOL
The technician was a sweet girl, I get into position , then she says "I have to touch your breasts to make sure they are in the right position. Don't worry, there is no pinching or squeezing, just moving them slightly, but my hands are cold". I seriously laughed out loud. I've had so many mammograms that another pinch or squeeze is nothing!
I'm tough and so are my breasts!!
Breasts of STEELE
(that's my last name, in case some of you didn't know ;) )
By the time the MRI was done, both my hands and wrists were 'asleep' What a weird feeling!
So now it's a waiting game. I'm giving the doc a week, then I'm calling. I think the biggest fault I have is NO PATIENCE!!
Heading to bed, have a great night all!
Keep Smilin'

Monday, January 2, 2012

Back To Routine..

The holidays are over and now it's time to get back to normal. Sean left a couple of hours ago for his week. He's headed to Pennsylvania. Hopefully the weather is a bit nicer there then here. It was nice to spend so much time with him over the holidays but now it's back to reality and back to trying to get on our feet.
It's also time to get back to losing the weight I so need to lose. I quite enjoyed the last couple of weeks with food, wine , beer and chocolate but now it's time to get down to business LOL
I've actually started a layout today, if you can believe that. It's been forever. I issued a challenge over at Scrap~tures so I figured I'd better get my example done.
If any of you are looking for someplace to hang out, we'd love to have you join us!!
Well, back to the craft room...have a great day! Hopefully the weather isn't too bad where you are!
ONLY 78 days until spring ;)
Keep Smilin'

Sunday, January 1, 2012

2012 ~ A New Year~

I'm back :) I took your comments into consideration and you are all right...I need to not worry about the effect my posts have on others, they are my feelings and thoughts , so why hide them!!
2012 is a new year, a year full of possibilities, a year full of change and growth
I go for my MRI in 4 days..January 4th at 9:30 am at Mt Sinai in Toronto. I'm very positive that there is nothing wrong, and that they will discover that everything is fine and I'm still 100% cancer free.
This year is going to be about getting ourselves back on track financially. With Sean back to work, it should be fairly easy to do. Christmas of course took it's toll, so now with that out of the way, I can concentrate on getting our bills cleaned up, then work on paying back my parents.
I'm still a member of Weight Watchers, and to date have lost 32 lbs. I have aprox 25 more lbs to go. My goal is to have it gone by June. I plan to walk a lot more on the treadmill to achieve this goal.
I also plan to scrap more. I have lots of supplies begging to be used and lots of pictures needing to be scrapped.
We are also going to get this house fixed up like we intended 5 (almost 6) years ago when we purchased the house. The basement needs to be finished, the upstairs hardwood floors need to be sanded and re sealed. The outside of the house needs to be presssure washed and resealed too.
It's going to be a busy year, but a good one (providing my tests all come back ok!! )
Thanks to each and every one of you that wanted to see me continue with my blog. Thanks to my husband for standing by me through everything. You guys are all awesome and I'm totally grateful for having you in my life!!
Keep Smilin'